Thank You Mommy, but I’m Sorry

Thank You for everything Mommy! Thank You for seeing in me what I couldn’t see in myself; For telling me I was destined for greatness even though I was too afraid to believe it. I wasn’t afraid when you dropped me off at Bowie because you prepared me to face the world my entire life. You believed in me when I didn’t believe in myself. It was you that gave me the courage to join the Army. I wasn’t afraid because I felt like you prepared me to be a leader my entire life. You told me to follow Alpha if it was truly in my heart and you would support me. Thank You Mommy

I’m sorry Mommy! I’m sorry I let you down at times. I’m sorry I didn’t listen when you told me alcohol was a demon that would take everything I worked for. I’m sorry I didn’t treat her better when you told me to make her my wife. You told me she was perfect, but I was so afraid I didn’t deserve her that I panicked and fucked it up. Please forgive me, I couldn’t call you everyday when you were sick because I wasn’t strong enough to handle it. I’m so sorry I couldn’t introduce you to your grandchildren while you could still hold them.

Thank You Mommy. I know I wasn’t a perfect child, but I always tried to make you proud. I worked to do right by people like you taught me. You inspired me so I worked everyday to inspire others. I could never say Thank You enough for everything you did for me. I’m just sorry I couldn’t do more for you.

5 thoughts on “Thank You Mommy, but I’m Sorry

  1. This is beautiful D… A mother’s loves is unconditional always remember that. Your family was and will always be her pride and joy…

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  2. I think coming from a mother’s point of view, she didn’t want you to he perfect. She had to encourage you above what ever she or you thought. She knew that you wouldnt listen because she didn’t always listen to her parents. But what you wrote was so beautiful because believe me she already knew you were destined for greatness. It just comes with a price. Stay inspired

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